Psalms 29:11
Friday, January 10, 2014
Psalms 29:11
Monday, January 6, 2014
The struggle
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Steal (still) my joy
Monday, June 24, 2013
My Boy- Aldous Gray Sullivan
The next 48 hours went by in a flash, from us getting to the hospital and having to get checked in and get all of the insurance info, to the point where her parents showed up and later when my brother and his wife and my dad showed up....it was a time where our families were one and the same where we were all anxious to see this first grand baby of the Sullivan side, and the first male on my wife's side...he was on his way and we couldn't wait to see my beautiful boy!! It came to the point where the doctor came in and started talking to us about the epideral...my wife decided she wanted it...so we left the room to grab some breakfast and breathe while they did it. We came back and things sped up quickly before I knew it we were all getting ready for kristy to push! And did she ever!! 2 1/2 hours of pushing!!! The end result was a healthy baby boy named Aldous Gray Sullivan!! The moment he came into the world I truly felt gods love and blessings all over me, it was a feeling like I had never experienced!! Today he turns 1 and its been the best year of me and my wifes life.
Monday, June 17, 2013
Humbled
Its funny when I was 20 years old I had this vision of myself- strong, confident, and in my own mind humble. I could run around with my friends and family and not have to worry about the consequences of my actions because my body was strong. Well fast forward 10 years, actually 9 years 363 days to be exact to Friday June 14th where all my confidence in my abilities was halted by one stubborn act of rebellion against what I know and have always known " you have to stretch before any type of physical activity ". There I was suited up and ready to play on my families soccer team at a benefit soccer game for my mother, I got up jogged down field and thought " hey this feels good " and there it was that little voice in your head that reminds you that your human, that your flesh will forever be in battle with your spirit, so leaving all common sense behind I turned with a smile on my face and put every ounce of strength I had into my left leg to sprint back to my seat...well there it was, a feeling I hadn't felt in years- sickening pain- my upper thigh was on fire and the pain made me sick to my stomach. This once strong body, although in the best shape I had been in years, had let me down. I had been humbled by my ignorance.
It wasn't until fathers day the following Sunday did I finally realize why I had ignored everyones pleas for me to warm up, you see I am a man, hey I'm not ashamed to admit that I am stubborn and that even though I have grown up mentally and physically over the last 30 years I still like to believe I am invincible. As I listened to our pastors sermon I sat and thought about what I had did Friday, I hurt myself and then even though I was hurt I still played in both soccer games. To a lot of people that may be dumb but I had something to prove to myself and I did it to the best of my ability, but that's what god was telling me, if I had warmed up stretched and prepared the way I was taught then I could have given a full 110% but because I leaned on my understanding ( you see what I did there ) I ended up injured and broken so I couldn't give my all to the team I had committed to play on and committed to give my 110%. It hit me hard on Sunday, I have got to start letting go... and let god...so simple right? As long as we are plagued by the flesh on our bones its a constant struggle.
I have been humbled by own ignorance, how many times have we all been in that situation? You know better but you do it anyway. Story of my life!!! But guess what? My god is a god of forgiveness and he's a teacher, he knew I was gonna be dumb and he also knew I was gonna get something out of this. I was humbled not only physically, but spiritually as well. That's how my god works, he's amazing! So as I start my 30th year of life I am anxious to see whats in store for me and my family! And most of all I am getting prepared, stretching my faith and warming up, preparing for my new adventure, and most of all accepting that I am not 20 anymore, and that's ok!!